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suddenly these 2 songs came to my head.
both by Destiny's Child
Say my name
Say my name
Say my name
If nobody's around you say baby I love you
If you ain't runnin game
Chorus1:
Say my name
Say my name
You acting kind of shady
Ain;t callin me baby
Why the sudden change
Say my name
Say my name
If no one is around you say baby I love you
If you ain't runnin game
Say my name
Say my name
You actin kind of shady
Ain't callin me baby
Betta say my name
Verse:
Any other day I would call you would say
Baby hows your day But today it ain't the same
Every other word is a huh, yeah okay
Could it be that you are at the crib wit another lady
If you took there first of all let me say
I am not the one to sit around and be played
So prove yourself to me and the other girl you playin
Why don't you say the things you said to me yesterday
Chorus2:
I know you sayin I'm assuming thing
(Somethings goin down thats the way it seems)
Shouldn't be a reason why your acting strange
(No ones holding you back from me)
Cause I know how you usually do
(When you sayin everything to me times 2)
Why can't you just tell the truth
(If someones there tell me who)
Chorus1:
Verse2:
What is up wit this tell the truthwho you wit
How would you like it if I came over wit my clique
Don't try to change it now see you got to bounce
When 2 seconds ago you said you just got in the house
It's so hard to believe you were home by yourself
When I just heard the voice the voice of someone else
Just this question why do you feel you got to lie
You caught in your game you cannot even say my name
Chorus 2 :
Chorus 1:
yay yay yay yay yay yeay yay yay yay yayayay oooh oooh oh
Chorus 2
Chorus 1
and
Emotions
It's over and done
But the heartache lives on inside
And who is the one you're clinging to
Instead of me tonight?
And where are you now, now that i need you
Tears on me pillow, wherever you go
Cry me a river, that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart
In the words of the broken heart
It's just emotions that's taken me ever
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you will come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world
To hold me tight
Dont cha know there's nobody in the world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
I'm there at your side,
A part of all the things you are
But you've got a part someone else
You've got to find your shining star
And where are you now?
Now that i need you
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
Cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotions that's taken me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Dont you know there's nobody left in this world
Hold me tight
Nobody left in this world kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
And where are you now, now that i need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
Cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that's taken me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Nobody left in this world
To hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
memories jotted down @ 12:50 AM `
a very special occasion for my dearest ms michelle gondokusumo now known as Mrs Martin Goh!
;
early morning at 730am!
very gorgeous!
during the tea ceremony
presenting to you, MR AND MRS MARTIN GOH!
after that headed to the groom's place for lunch and ceremony too..
den went taking pics with the club celica ppl!
10 over celicas!
so fun!
but i was so damn tired!
i managed to get a few shots of the cars!
from his place to CTE
;
a PERFECT SHOT of the bride's car! her own celica!
and in the tunnel
went rounding to ecp to airport and then to some park near EXPO.
busy bride giving drinks to us.
tired bride!
and the group pictures!
all 10 celicas, different design and one white integra!
then after everything was done.
they sent me back! voom voom voom!
heehee!
mich n martin, may both u lovebirds be blissfully happy always! love u mich!
smuaks!
memories jotted down @ 11:27 PM `
so lacked of sleep!
gosh!
hesitated whether to go yesterdae, apparently.
I DID!
lol
i feel so guilty!
but was fun la.
just damn tired.
left at nearing 5
got up at 645.
waited for my cab like 20 mins!
den busy the whole day with the wedding and tuition
but i cant seem to sleep now.
=carrie won!
i knew it from the start!
lol
she's good!
liverpool won too!
amazing how they went draw in 2nd half when in the 1st half was 3-0 to AC milan.
miracles!
the tea recpt went great.
tekan the groom. he's got damn 'on' friends.
willing to wax on his behalf.
going for forfeit like eating raw garlic and chilli and maggi mee.
yikes!
lol
but he's a nice guy!
lol
the next post, u'll see more!
memories jotted down @ 10:43 PM `
just realised i've been Miss Nice all my life. maybe its time to do some changes.
being a total bitch may not be my forte but i can bring it off well.
i remember jasmine telling me something like do unto others what others will do unto u. or something like that.
being nice doesnt mean they will be nice back.
and i dun expect that too.
i'm one who do wad i feel like. i dun not aim for refund or a return.
therefore, to certain human beings.
i tend to be nice but in fact i'm not.
hypocrite u might say.
lol
i dun give a damn.
i do what i want.
need not ppl tell me.
i'm losing motivations to do anything.
geez. someone help.
just last week, this close friend of mine was telling me i'm too nice. ppl tend to take for granted. admitted that he himself sometimes take it too.
geez. i've an extreme soft-heart. but fierce. contra, definately. lol.
even my darlings are scared of me when i get loud or shout.
jas says that i've a 'sah-qi' face. erm..
english would be, erm.. 'come near me and u'll die' or 'fuck-off'
cos when i dun smile, i look fierce.. *nvr really realised that*
maybe those are the blood of my dad
lol
i should just carry that face everywhere i go.
argh.
tired of being miss nice joanne!
memories jotted down @ 6:22 PM `
argh! fucking hell
today is so not my day.
first fucking angry morning.
den ppl jio me go zouk
den have to think of wad to wear tml for mich's wedding tea ceremony
and i was blogging halfway, the mouse went to click on my bloody shortcut and everything was GONE!
freaking pissed.
this was wat happened this morning.
due to the bloody heavy rain, i've decided to take a bus back instead of cab.
long journey and some stuff was on my mind. so while listening to the radio on my mp3 player, my stomach was grumbling.
decided to get to bedok interchange and packed some brunch home.
and the rain started pouring again,
decided to take a cab back from the mrt there.
the scenerio starts.
walking from the interchange to the mrt (u know there's the small flight of 7-8 steps one) and from far, i saw this pregnant lady and her husband. so being me, i moved aside for them to walk and the next thing i knew i was on the floor facing flat. fuck lor. the husband pushed me and said i was in his wife's way and i expected a sorry
but apparently i was wrong.
'oi, watch where u walking lei. blind or wad!?'
wat the hell was that!?!?
when i'm heated, i'll argued back.
but i was too grossed out with the dripping of the bloody dirty water on my body.
and his wife is nice enough to hold me up la.
i was sooooo tempted to tell him, so wad, pregnant big deal ah?
but i did not la.
then this part triggered my blood.
meanwhile his wife was holding me up, he pulled his wife away.
why u helping inconsiderate ppl who dun give way when they see pregnant woman?
fuck la. lucky i'm not pregnant. if i was *touch wood*, and happen to lose my baby cos of this fucker, i swear i'll sue him till his pants drop!
he can further say,
u better make sure my baby is fine, else i'll sue u!
then a crowd started to gather around us and there were ppl just jumping into conlusion. lucky for me, few nice ppl stood out and said to proof the whole thing.
this uncle very nice.
'i was walking behind this girl den she move to be in the rain den u went to push her. i think others also saw. u are very inconsiderate, u know. think of urself only. dunno how to think abt others. what if she's also pregnant, are u gonna bear the responsibilty?'
and this auntie said in hokkien. i dun understand the whole thing but abit only la.
something like she move for u yet u so unreasonable. but thankfu l she nvr call police.
some of the by-lookers asked if want to call the police anot..
no need la.
i'm not that badly injured also.
just the impact hit on my tailbone again.
last yr, i fell off the swing and blacked out. the part i injured was the same part i injured today. fucking suay la.
abit of baby bruises here and there. but i should be fine la.
i seriously DO NOT understand why the hell is wrong with ppl?
so inconsiderate yet so loud as though u're in the wrong
they nvr realised, the more they speak, they make themselves look more guilty.
sigh.
my day started and ended with a sigh.
memories jotted down @ 6:21 PM `
its just a long day..
the time nvr seem to pass.
gosh.
i feel old!
:~
i dun wanna turn 20 but i want 21!
been blog-browsing nearly for 2 hours.
blogs nvr bores me.
read abt way they lead their lives, how their daily issues and blah blah blah
how they think they're just god-damn pretty and smart but always spelling wrongly.
how she praises herself as though the whole fucking world wants her.
and i'm not talking abt xiaxue here.
xx's blog is damn entertaining.
its NEVER boring.
her photoshop skills are damn good!
i can just go on forever but i wun
my latest found blog, a friend's one.
its interesting and he's been a friend for years, thru the cheesiest place, MIRC. lol
but look at it this way, thru there, i've found many good friends, best friends and for that matter. i've got hates from there too..
never judge anything by its cover.
be it human or items.
okay.. getting out of points.
boohoohoo!
i'm sooo bored!
i need a life!
someone pls pls call me go!?
nearly forgot.. i wanna compile a photo album BUT i'm so damn lazy!
lol.. there are sooo many memories i wanna keep. life's so short. remember it as everyday passes. i thank God for giving me good memory, being able to remember whoever crosses my path, be it a major or a small one.
i've so got many memories i want to share.
some that words can't describe.
memories jotted down @ 2:17 AM `
whee!
i'm getting smarter!
i'm just plain lazy i guess!
lol
english compo, when i tot i was way out of point, the lecturer gave me 93%
i love that guy! whoever it is!
SMUAKS!
heehee!
and my first assignment also.
87%
its unbelievable. though i cant recall what i wrote..but yea!
happy correct already la!
before i forget..
i had a very interesting ride home in the cab today.
this is the conversation.
him: where to?
me: tampines ave 1
him: going work ah?
me: there got offices meh?
him: u chinese or malay? *Extremely common qns during cab rides.
me: mixed la
and he starts already.
him: u look quite young and pretty ah?
him: anyway, my name is george
me: huh?
him: i tot u wanted to know my name mah
me: *lol secretly (anyone WOULD)
him: wad's urs?
me: lily
him: wah! such a nice name.. suits ur face
i was thinking.. fuck la. u wish my name was lily. so fucking cheesy can!
me: orh.. isit..*forced smile* thx
him: so how old are u?
me: how old u think i am?
him: 20+
me: okay la..
him: i'm only 28, young right?
me: no lei.. quite old liao lei..
him: wah.. die la.. i really look old meh?
me: i nvr say anything abt u being old wad?
him: wah.. u very sharped tongue hor?
me: okay wad. my tongue not very sharp.
midst of PIE
him: wah. jam liao. i think got accident in front.
me: most prob la. usually this time wun have jam one.
me: jam cos all must be as kaypoh as u
he gave me the look via the rear mirror and kept quiet already.
i got off the cab and freaking laugh my heads off!
LOL
memories jotted down @ 5:07 PM `
The Corrs - Only when i sleep
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You're only just a dreamboat
Sailing in my head
You swim my secret oceans
You're only just a dreamboat
Of coral blue and red
Sailing in my head
Your smell is incense burning
You swim my secret oceans
Your touch is silken yet
Of coral blue and red
It reaches through my skin
Your smell is incense burning
And moving from within
Your touch is silken yet
It clutches at my breast
It reaches through my skin
And moving from within
It clutches at my breast
But it's only when i sleep
See you in my dreams
But it's only when I sleep
You got me spinning round and round
See you in my dreams
Turning upside-down
You got me spinning round and round
But i only hear you breathe
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe
Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Somewhere in my sleep
Turning upside-down
Got me spinning round and round
But its only when i sleep
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep
And when i wake from slumber
And when I wake from slumber
Your shadow's disappear
Your shadow's disappear
Your breath is just a sea mist
Your breath is just a sea mist
Surrounding my body
Surrounding my body
I'm workin' through the daytime
I'm workin' through the daytime
But when it's time to rest
But when it's time to rest
I'm lying in my bed
I'm lying in my bed
Listening to my breath
Listening to my breath
Falling from the edge
Falling from the edge
But it's only when i sleep
But it's only when I sleep
See you in my dreams
See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe
But i only hear you breathe
Somewhere in my sleep
Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep
But its only when i sleep
It's only when I sleep
It's only when i sleep
Up to the sky
Up to the sky
Where angels fly
Where angels fly
I'll never die
I'll never die
Hawaiian High
Hawaiian high
In bed I lie
In bed i lie
No need to cry
No need to cry
My sleeping cry
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian High
Hawaiian high
It's reaching through my skin
Movin' from within
It's reaching through my skin
Clutches at my breasts
Movin' from within
But it's only when I sleep....
Clutches at my breasts
But it's only when i sleep....
See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
See you in my dreams
But I only hear you breathe
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
Somewhere in my sleep
But i only hear you breathe
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
Somewhere in my sleep
But its only when I sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
Up to the sky
But its only when i sleep
Where angels fly
I'll never die
Hawaiian High
Up to the sky
In bed I lie
Where angels fly
No need to cry
I'll never die
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian high
Hawaiian High
In bed i lie
No need to cry
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian high
memories jotted down @ 9:14 AM `
haha! been hooked on class95 since wed night from 1030 till 12+
WHY is that so ?
cos dearest Crix got voted to date the girl out.
u know those blind dates thingy on Class95?
haha
yep.. and he won.
apparently he sabotaged me too!
he chose my sms to be read on air.
how sweet.
but hey, i was true with those words k?!
u are charming and romantic in every bit!
boyish sexiness *lol
gd dancer right?!
and dances with j.low during horny right!?!?
LOL
true abt the last line BUT it was NOT part of the sms.
lol.
i voted like mad.
1 reason after another.
u better gimme a nice treat baby!
=P
wanna sabo me again by nominating me right!?!
nvm.. i'll get my revenge back!
anyway, watched stars wars yesterday and i fell asleep half the movie..
i so want to watch house of wax and amityville horror.
sounds psycho? U BET!
haha..i'm a sucker for horror flicks!
lol
anyway, i've been afraid to sleep these few days.
i've been having very, and i mean VERY weird dreams..
geez.
it freaks me out totally.
memories jotted down @ 8:49 AM `
man! i'm getting fat man!
2 days in a row, i've been eating the lunch buffet at suki sushi
super cheap AND WORTH IT!
i'm so dead serious.
20 bucks for a lunch buffet.
any price ranging from 1.80 to 4.90.
we whacked everything.
oysters, sashimis after sashimis.
lol
nearly ate 200bucks in 2 days!
but they have good business man.
lol
the week's been great.
had a sweet surprise from the boy.
a bouquet of red n white roses and a butterfly pendant necklace.
really sweet, right?
lol
giving tuitions to my kids ARE fun.
they're damn active.
and i mean really.
talking NON-STOP.
copying each other.
throwing things at each other.
GEEZ!
i wanna get clothes!
i wanna get the stripe dress from shibuya!
:(
i wanna lose my big fat ass!
i wanna lose my big flabby tummy!
i wanna lose my flabby arms.
but i dun wanna lose any lives cos its so darn precious!
i dun understand what u mean by the vulnerable side of me.
can u pls explain?
memories jotted down @ 4:45 PM `
geez..
this boils me UP my bloodstream.
if ppl only make friends with rich, drives and has a gd educational status.
then the world is too sad to be in.
for goodness sake la.
if u wanna take BEHIND my fucking back. come in front and talk.
talking abt me not paying when going clubbing ?
maybe sometimes when sign-ed in or open bottle,
BUT I DUN DRINK, have i NVR took a sip of alcohol from u guys, NO.
go to my dad's pub, open 4/5 bottles and not a single penny is returned to me..
geez..look who's talking now..
fucking shit.
i haven seen u all for like wad? 1 yr odd?
and STILL wanna talk abt it?
too bored or nothing better to do then to check ppl's bg?
oh ya. forgot. busy going to jail too right ?
i know who u are.
memories jotted down @ 1:46 AM `
a strong girl i once knew, is no longer along.
intelligent yet gorgeous and friendly.
did something so silly for love.
Sheena Tan Kim Yee
18 March 1985 - 7 May 2005
(the girl we know as sherry)
i've been trying to be strong since last night when i heard the news.
i did not believe it. i went around asking. then it was true.
i looked thru the obituries, but it had nothing.
the images of her kept on appearing.
her radiant smiles, her hugs at zouk.
her complaining abt her beer belly.
intelligent and gorgeous.
her loud laughters.
and her dreams as a SQ girl.
u told me i'll see u when i go on hols in the plane, with u serving me.
i did not believe unless i read it from 2 different ppl
i went to her blog, clicked on all the links and find.
found 2 girls.
i was devesated, on the verge of breaking down.
its so hard for me to absorb so much news in 9 days.
first was elton's grandmother.
second was a friend, whose only 22 suffered from stroke, brain-damaged. and i wanna know details but no one wanna tell me. i cant contact her brother too cos i lost the number.
and now.. my sherrybaby. 20 and a beauty. took a leap and she was gone from our hearts.
my heart hurts so badly now.
i cant hold back my tears anymore.
i've always been updating myself via her blog
the pain she bear, for someone not worth it at all.
the life she took away herself for someone not worth it.
i miss her so much, so much.
though we hardly kept in touch and she's always been the few i rarely see and brings the smile on my face out from within the heart.
i wanna her hug her once more.
but i cant
i regret not calling her at all.
i regret not being there for her like b4.
i regret not coming online anymore.
but i know she's safe with the Lord.
i know she want all of us to be strong.
all her friends.
i've been saying prayers after prayers.
i couldn't bring myself to see her turn into ashes.
cos i know my heart will break at that very moment.
for someone so far yet so close to my heart.
someone, who for love, can do such a silly thing.
Sherry, we love you.
u're greatly missed by us.
no matter how rarely we see each other's face,
u played a huge role in my life, by listening when i was at the bottom of my life.
i love u so much.
u've been the greatest listener.
It was so unexpected.
It seemed so unreal cos i can always remmeber ur face, the face that nvr frowns and the cheerful u.
the news hit me like a lightning, left me dumbfounded.
I can't understand why you did that and i think i wun too.
What's done is done
and i know u're safe in the Lord's hands.
watching over those who love u so much and the tears we shed.
those hearts who has been broken into million pieces from 1 news.
we'll be strong for u
once again. i miss u so much.
with much love,
joanne.
7th May 2005, a day i'll nvr forget in my entire life.
memories jotted down @ 10:37 PM `
Chance or Choice?
Chance or Choice? When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right place at the right time, thet's chance. When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance. Being caught up in a moment (and there are a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance. The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling. If you decide to love a person, even with his/her faults, that's not a chance. That's choice. When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice. Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice. Infatuation, crushes, and attraction come to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make. Regarding soulmates, there's a beautiful movie qoute that I believe is so true about this: "Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen." I believe that soulmates do exist, that there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something aboit it or not. We may meet our soulmates by chance, but loving and staying with our solulmate is still a choice we have to make. We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love. BUT to learn to love an imperfect person.
memories jotted down @ 1:49 AM `
this is a late update
but nvm
26th April, my dearest girl turned 20 and STILL in denial mode!
=D
i'm glaf to like the gift though she was utterly shocked!
first gift up, a can of campbell's mushroom soup!
i know she'll LOVE IT!
=D
she's been there for my falls and everything..
i've been there for her too!
and we were be, in many yrs to come, right!?!?
happy 20th girl!
memories jotted down @ 11:10 AM `