Monday, May 09, 2005
a strong girl i once knew, is no longer along.
intelligent yet gorgeous and friendly.
did something so silly for love.
Sheena Tan Kim Yee
18 March 1985 - 7 May 2005
(the girl we know as sherry)
i've been trying to be strong since last night when i heard the news.
i did not believe it. i went around asking. then it was true.
i looked thru the obituries, but it had nothing.
the images of her kept on appearing.
her radiant smiles, her hugs at zouk.
her complaining abt her beer belly.
intelligent and gorgeous.
her loud laughters.
and her dreams as a SQ girl.
u told me i'll see u when i go on hols in the plane, with u serving me.
i did not believe unless i read it from 2 different ppl
i went to her blog, clicked on all the links and find.
found 2 girls.
i was devesated, on the verge of breaking down.
its so hard for me to absorb so much news in 9 days.
first was elton's grandmother.
second was a friend, whose only 22 suffered from stroke, brain-damaged. and i wanna know details but no one wanna tell me. i cant contact her brother too cos i lost the number.
and now.. my sherrybaby. 20 and a beauty. took a leap and she was gone from our hearts.
my heart hurts so badly now.
i cant hold back my tears anymore.
i've always been updating myself via her blog
the pain she bear, for someone not worth it at all.
the life she took away herself for someone not worth it.
i miss her so much, so much.
though we hardly kept in touch and she's always been the few i rarely see and brings the smile on my face out from within the heart.
i wanna her hug her once more.
but i cant
i regret not calling her at all.
i regret not being there for her like b4.
i regret not coming online anymore.
but i know she's safe with the Lord.
i know she want all of us to be strong.
all her friends.
i've been saying prayers after prayers.
i couldn't bring myself to see her turn into ashes.
cos i know my heart will break at that very moment.
for someone so far yet so close to my heart.
someone, who for love, can do such a silly thing.
Sherry, we love you.
u're greatly missed by us.
no matter how rarely we see each other's face,
u played a huge role in my life, by listening when i was at the bottom of my life.
i love u so much.
u've been the greatest listener.
It was so unexpected.
It seemed so unreal cos i can always remmeber ur face, the face that nvr frowns and the cheerful u.
the news hit me like a lightning, left me dumbfounded.
I can't understand why you did that and i think i wun too.
What's done is done
and i know u're safe in the Lord's hands.
watching over those who love u so much and the tears we shed.
those hearts who has been broken into million pieces from 1 news.
we'll be strong for u
once again. i miss u so much.
with much love,
joanne.
7th May 2005, a day i'll nvr forget in my entire life.
memories jotted down @ 10:37 PM `