Friday, November 04, 2005
how did u feel at a point of time
when ur ex-bf said something so harsh it breaks ur heart
and noww u finds out that he's suffering the way u did in the past
he said he fucking hates u.
now. he's being hates and hates his 'gf'.
would u be happy?
now i'm feeling like shit actually
i feel sad for him
why does he has to go to this state?
wasnt he happy the way he was in the past
i'm sure he was happy when he was back then with my backstabbing- bitch 'best friend'
the worst regret of my life.
i wished i knew the future.
i wished i could change the facts
but it lingers in me now.
they still carries on hating me
but i dont really give a fuck abt it
cos i get to live life only once
and i believe i could get a guy SO MUCH better than he was.
he broke that fragile heart
it took sooo much pain to get it back together.
now seeing him getting a broken heart back in return.
i really wished to say 'this is the taste of ur own fucking medicine'
but deep down, i hope to tell him 'are u okay?'
i do not love him anymore.
but i treasure friendships more than anything in the world
i merely wanted a friend back and console. and he rejected it
that was to the extend the hatred went to.
even as a friend, i could not even be.
if u see this, u think ur patience is golden, wad abt mine?
so much to see u face to face and just say fuck u. but i cant bring myself to.
cos u're now in the same shoe as i was 5 yrs back.
so much hatred in me for both of u, but i know how much hatred can i bring myself to hate the 2 ppl i loved dearly.
haiya.
fuck u la.
memories jotted down @ 4:19 AM `