Friday, September 09, 2005
having gone thru a hell of a night
having to settle alot of issues.
having to have good talks with ppl
having to catch up with old friends
i realised one thing.
what i am now is what you all have changed me to be
without all of u, there wun be a ME
without the ex-bfs and fucked up friends who made me go crashing to the floor,
there wont be a slighty stronger me.
i'm tough in everyones' eyes
but deep inside its another me.
soft, secretive and keeps it to her own world.
not everyone seen that side.
mostly saw the tough side.
not the one beneath.
it was a piece of my sick mind.
coughing like hell.
its a freaking 0430 am.
i cant get to sleep
i dunno why
there's nothing in my head
browsing profiles of friends in my list.
looking at pictures.
reading blogs.
still coughing my lungs out at this very min.
yesterdae the girls in zouk went mad
the guys from project superstar were down and in front of us
jasmine, hq and xuan went jello in their legs.
so damn funny. they were screaming
lol
hq begged me to change place with her but i dun wan
i got reason one cos i dun wanna face to face some certain ppl.
damn funny.
honestly, i NVR watched a single episode of PSS. NEVER.
like i've said b4, i've lost touch with TV but welcome to the DVD world.
me n my boo were like blur blur standing there dunno wad was going on.
hilarious.
oh yes. i saw an old friend yesterdae at mambo..
i dunno. part of me wants to continue this f/s again
but other half of me really dun wanna keep in contact this time.
i dun wan consider him a friend anymore.
in my eyes, he's nothing more than a fucker already.
this time , i'm willing to throw this whole package away.
slap me someone if i talk abt him again (i'm serious)
i doubt it cos he disgust me.
memories jotted down @ 4:19 AM `