Thursday, March 24, 2005
just got home from lunch and collecting some photos from jasmine's place..
i just realised its michael's death anniversary today.
he passed on 4 yrs ago..
it was a very heart-wreaching news for ppl close to him.
he was suffering from lung cancer and was in pain when he locked himself up in his room , in pain and led him to heaven.
he was a very nice guy. sweet. understanding.
but he loves the dark, hates the light. his entire room's wall is painted black.
he called himself the devil. but i called him my angel.
i can still clearly remember our first date 7 yrs ago, he wore a black shirt as usual but with a white jacket. everyone was so shocked.. its so not him wearing other colours.
he was a great artist.
picked me up from sch everyday in the evening. when he stays at novena.
being first love, everything was so sweet..his friends. and everything. even he crashed at his friend's place.. he'll call like every 15 mins. always telling me he'll be my guardian angel.
but one thing abt him.. he smokes like hell..
that was WHEN i HATED smokers. cos it took someone who sweet away from ppl..
(but now things are different.. hee!)
we broke up mid june in 1999. kept in contact still.. and he was dating someone from our group too..he's changed.. in gangs and all.. making all of us worried..but i know his character was still there..somehow i could sense it.
then i got attached to someone else and i left mike off my mind...
a big mistake.
in 2000, during my years in Youth Challenge... i gave him a call.. supposedly to meet him in town. at my booth.. but he waited at the telephone booth instead.. from 530 , we waited till 10+. we did not managed to bump into each other..i was so frigging mad cos i thought he did not want this meeting at all..after that i did not call him at all..
on july 13 2001, i called his place and wanting to wish him happy bdae.. his maid hanged up on me.. i tried calling again..she asked me where was i calling from..den i talked to his mother.. she broke the news to us.
it was just after tuition and sitting at the bus stop with nicole, in total shocked with the news. tears just flowed from both our eyes. how can someone who nice be taken away by the Lord! but after all those crying, i told myself that it must have been God's plan to take him away and make him my guardian angel..
since then. every march 24th and july 13th i'll make my way to lim chu kang to pay my respect, and the night b4 these 2 dates, i'll always have dreams of him talking to me.
except this year, clearly forgot
and this is the only yr i did not dream abt him.
Dear Lord,
Please Bless Michael Wherever He is, Be It In Ur Kingdom or Watching Over Me.
Let Him Be Happy. Let Him Watch Over People He Care For. Apologises To Forgetting Today. Michael, I Wish U Every Happiness. Thank You For Watching Over Me.
Amen
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i feel so bad.
so full of guilt.
argh!
this is bad!
:(
i'm so sorry
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